What even IS M.E??

Since my last post, operation ‘get Charlie out of bed’ has been in full swing. This has involved a diet high in organic veggies sans grains/sugar/processed foods, plenty of fresh veg juice, weekly vitamin B12 injections, a disciplined night time and morning routine punctuated with regular naps. This really worked and I was up and about, I even managed a wonderfully restorative week in Ibiza! I was feeling super positive until I contracted a rather horrid cold that I initially resisted, insisting it was hay fever, until I found myself flat on my arse again. I found myself in a predicament as I’ve pretty much watched all the films on Netflix with a 3+ star rating and after making it through some utterly shit 2 star films in my semi conscious state I endeavored to write this post. This is my second attempt as the first is as, if not more, depressing than some of those films I endured – never will I get those hours back!


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10 Steps to start Healing – 1. Forgiveness


‘Forgiveness is not an occasional act, it is a constant attitude.‘ Martin Luther King Jr.

I can’t stress how important this is. If you’re like me then you’ve spent long periods of time feeling anger towards your body. You feel as though your body is letting you down, you feel trapped and frustrated. The thing is your body is actually really amazing and it’s only trying to protect you. Continue reading →

Dust Yourself Off And Try Again


Like any self-respecting child of the 90s, the late, great, Aaliyahs immortal words are scorched into my psyche. As children we are told over and over to not give up, that practice makes perfect or my favorite, guaranteed to produce a tantrum, ‘there’s no such word as can’t’. Clearly we listened to this advice as we’ve mastered the art of walking, most of us can spell our names and some of us can even draw or play music.

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Is It Just a Ride?


You might be wondering why I decided to call my blog ‘its just a ride’. In no way is it intended to trivialise the seriousness of M.E. Trust me…I’ve cried on the shower floor because I couldn’t physically wash my hair, I’ve cried on the kitchen floor because I lacked the energy to heat up some soup, I’ve cried on my bedroom floor because after looking forward to a friends birthday celebrations for weeks, and getting as far as showering, blow-drying my hair, putting a shit heap of illuminating products on my face AND getting dressed it’s obvious there is no way I’m going to make it to the actual party. I understand the isolation, the fear and the anger you feel after you get diagnosed and you do the google search of doom. It’s really easy to let the ‘seriousness’ of having M.E take over sometimes and I’m telling you…it’s not helpful at all. I really believe, as hard as it can be at times, having a sense of humour – a lightness of heart  and a positive outlook is one of the most important parts of getting better.

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A Guide to how NOT to Heal

Wow, my first blog post! I’ve wanted to start a blog ever since I began my ‘healing journey’ but have either been too out of it or too busy spending my energy doing other things. Today I find myself on the upward curve of a small crash and I’m biting the bullet and putting my words out there. if you’re reading this then its likely you either have M.E (or a related disease) or love someone with it. I’m not going to sugar coat it… that fucking sucks. BUT the good news is, the simple fact that you’re on the internet looking for recovery stories; seeking information, support and hope means you are on the right path to regaining your health, heck, you’re going to surpass what you used to deem healthy. So you’re probably thinking, meh, what does this girl know? Her condition was probably very mild, 6 months out of the saddle with mild fatigue, a few weeks CBT *scoffs* then back to the grind. Well that’s not the case. I’m not even fully recovered, I tell myself that I’m about 90% recovered and then I crash again, I forget about the progress I’ve made, focus on all the things this illness has taken from me, all the things I can’t do, haven’t done, will never do and quite unsurprisingly become a real Debbie Downer. I thought I would start this healing guide with a little guide of how NOT to heal from an autoimmune disease. Hopefully you can learn from my mistakes!

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